I’ve thought long and hard to decide if I was going to continue to write on this blog. At one point in time it meant a lot to me to share with family and friends what was going on in my life. I’d like to get back to the mindset where that is possible. 2008 was just a year that I would prefer not to revisit.
Where was I then?
I’ve spent the last few months trying to put things in perspective. I’ve changed the way I view and do a lot of things, but the major thing that I have done is curtailed my spending habits. I’ve become a coupon clipper, dollar store shopper, and a “freebie” whore. To all the digital designers out there who spend their time and energy into creating such wonderful gifts – to that I am truly thankful.
One of the things that I have started doing is journaling. I know… it’s ironic. I can’t even update this blog, but manage to write in a journal. It would be so much easier to type, but there is something about writing that is soothing. It’s very therapeutic. Plus what I write there is more on a personal and spiritual level, and I do not think it would be appropriate to put on here. This should be for everyday life, and I’ve always stated that.
The past few months have basically been a whirlwind for me. The kids starting school, work responsibilities increasing, struggling busting my ass off working two jobs… and feeling little to no satisfaction. With the gas prices being what they have been and the summer months electric bills… somewhere down that road the money that I make didn’t mean shit. I really haven’t “struggled” this much in a long time, and I have to admit it has been a humbling experience.
1 year ago, you could not have told me anything. I knew it all. Life has its way of laughing at you, and it turns out I knew nothing. Not one bit of anything. And so many people hurt because of it, but most of all myself. Somewhere between part A and B, I lost track of where I was supposed to be. Who I thought I was no longer existed. I just “was”.
So… Where I am now?
I’m looking forward to 2009 and the changes that I will be making. I’m looking forward to spending time with my girls, taking more pictures, working towards a healthier lifestyle, learning new things, meeting new people, and just general peace. That’s it. Nothing more. Anything else will just be an added bonus. I have no expectations from anyone except myself, and that’s all that I ever should have.
So… moving forward, this blog has been emptied of most of the old content dating back from 2006 with the exception of the pictures. I will be replacing those within the next week!
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